Personal Challenge Day 1

Not regretting it, but it was damn stressful can! Roomful of strangers, watching myself move around in the mirror and instructors that aren’t strict enough took a toll on me mentally. Also, other things that make me uncomfortable have been happening around me. Objectively, I know that I will be able to overcome all this, but I cannot control my emotions, so…ya, I need to write it out.

I like to do what I want, but doing whatever I want seems to be making people around me unhappy/worried and I dislike it. So I become more reserved and don’t do what I want, but I end up feeling like crap at the end of it. It’s that same struggle again. Being happy and making people around me happy. I really need to stick to my resolution and make myself happy first. Everybody else comes secondary. Gotta be a little selfish in order to be happy.

7 Replies to “Personal Challenge Day 1”

  1. I don’t know. It’s like, I’m multi faceted ya? People see one facet of me and think ok, this is what she’s like. When I get familiar with people and show another side of myself, it doesn’t fit with other people’s impression of me and hence they feel thrown outta balance and behave differently around me. Then my instinct to make people happy kicks in, and I revert back to my previous facade. At the end of the day, I am not able to feel comfortable with the uncomfortable people.

  2. u worry too much… people change from time to time and so do perceptions. so long as you are true to yourself, you’re happy, and you know that you’re not a bad person, there will be people who matters who will love you. we may make comments from time to time, but real friends don’t judge.

    by being yourself only then you can find people who love you for who you are. don’t change yourself.

  3. Moderation is the key…maybe it’s ur Scorpio side…u should refrain from suddenly grabbing pple with your pincers and sting them :S

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