I was in the toilet in my parents’ room when my mom said that she was feeling faint. So I asked her a series of questions, “Have you had enough sleep recently?”, “Did you intake enough sugar?” and so on. All checked out ok. She suspected that the inner fluid in her ears is causing her to feel faint, I told her that if that is the case, you would have vomitted already. Then she said that she wanna go see the doctor. I offered to go with her. She declined, saying that she’ll go with dad. Then dad rolled over on the bed and sorta woke up (he was trying to sleep earlier). I lingered around in the room as I put on my nightly facial care products, then when I was done, I asked her, “so, you wanna go to the doctor’s?” She said, “it’s ok, I can go with your dad.” Which dad also agreed to, and they promptly asked me to go sleep.

I feel… kinda useless, somehow.

I really didn’t mind accompanying her to see the doctor if need be, or even to take urgent leave tomorrow morning cos of this (though that would be such a major sabo to Vivian. :x)

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I watched Gran Torino today and found it to be a very meaningful movie. I haven’t had the time to check out the trailer or read the synopsis beforehand, was wondering what to expect when the movie began. I decided to watch based on PK’s comment that it’s a deep movie, and also at my movie kaki’s suggestion. He heard that the movie’s very good. Spoilers under the cut.

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nickpan gave me a challenge – to make Pipe Dream the first result when chufang is entered as a search keyword in Google. Currently I am the third result listing out of about 138,000 results for that keyword. I just edited some things on the blog, we’ll see whether the listings shift at the end of the month. :)

I have also given myself another personal challenge – to broaden the boundaries of my comfort zone again. As mentioned in the Facts, Habits and Goals meme, I don’t have confidence in activities that involve a lot of people watching me moving around. Which logically, makes dancing one of these activities.

Was introduced to Salsa dancing by my colleagues last year, and they have brought me to a Salsa club twice ever since. Tonight being the second time I went to the club. It was more crowded than the previous time we went there, and frankly speaking, I was such a stressed out ball of nerves. Haha. Previously, MZ also managed to persuade me to join her in a hip hop class, but it was so uncomfortable for me that I never joined her again.

I’m a natural introvert, and the things that I can do now without turning into a nervous wreck, is through years of practice and forcing myself to step out of my comfort zone. Some might think I’m a sadist for forcing myself so much, but without challenges, one cannot grow. I still cannot do a lot of things with confidence yet, but I hope that eventually I can become a well-rounded individual who is comfortable with herself in any situation. :)

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